This few weeks has been rather fup. Sometimes certain situations are beyond our control. Feeling abit helpless and lost.


a few things bothering me right now.


1. $200 fine. "Riding motor cycle in such a manner as to evade road user charge." Payment must be made before 28th July, otherwise I will have to appear in court personally to answer for the charges. How i got into this mess is long story...


2. 6 demerit points. Every probationary driver/rider ("triangle plate drivers") is permitted to obtain 12 demerit points within the first year of driving. Otherwise, their driving license will be disqualified for a year, meaning that all classes of licenses (car, bike lorry etc..) will be disqualified. And i got 6 fpoints within the 1st month of aquiring my bike license. long story.


3. My mom has dengue fever. On top of that, my house will have to be fumigated.


well actually the list can go on and on, but i guess its better to stop at 3. too stressed already.


I feel quite guilty for not being able to stay at home to take care of her. and she has to take care of me instead. and causing her to worry about my fine and my demerit points in a time like this. i also realised, my mom and dad are getting old. give them about 5 more years and it'll be time for them to retire. By then, their lifesavings would have been used up for my uni sch fees and for my sis's sch fees too. and then it would be my turn to carry the torch. i feel such a heavy burden already... its like the money im making now is not even enough to cover my own expenses, let alone take care of other pple. maybe im just thinking too far ahead, but its only 5 years away.



somehow, i wish i had a different life. somewhere in bali maybe... where the waves are huge and i can make a living from renting surfboards by the beach. and it'll just be shorts and tshirts all day, barefooted on the beach. and then at night we could take a stroll by the beach, ride down to the seafood restaurant on a vespa for a meal. hahaha! thats already heaven for me... kampung life dude... Singapore is so stressful.