Here I am. After years of battling with emotions. We dead. You dead. I dead.
The infatuation.
The intoxication.
Finally the liquidation.

Never fought so hard to lose. Battle = lost. War = lost.
Archive the memories. What remains is nothing but dust.
And as life goes on. We live not for ourselves and not for others. We live to die. We already dead.

wow...
it appears that i only blog when im sad huh
yea...
im feeling it again.

its a bittersweet symphony...
thats life...

God... guide me...
not just through this one...
but through my life...
Amen.

tonight i looked at the sky and it looked back at me
with a sigh i took on this journey
leaving a dream that i fought so hard for
tonight i've decided to leave the dream that made me
i've decided to let you not affect me
look at me differently if you would like
but know that if you fought
i would have fought together with you

i hesitate
let me not do this on impulse
sometimes life is a sentence worst than death

in the last days i've felt
the feeling of not having something
the feeling of losing something
the feeling of giving up something you fought so hard to keep
just to spare yourself the pain of losing it
its gay. but its good? maybe.
would you cut off a limb so that you could keep your heart?
i'ld cut my heart so that the limb won't hurt

maybe i'm blinded. maybe i'm seeing clearly.
build a house. plant a tree.
theres no you left for me.

i would if i could, but i can't so i won't.
but i would. if i could.

he did although he shouldn't. but i didn't because i shouldn't.

playing by the rules makes one a fool
because lines are just imaginary
but given another go, i still wouldn't because i shouldn't

its alright. its ok. you are stupid anyway.

i wish i could find a better solution. goodnight world.

its so hard its so hard its so hard its so hard its so hard its so hard its so hard its so hard to not think. goodnight world.

learning to fly is so difficult.
as u learn to fly higher, each fall is harder...
i miss u already...its been a while since i teared...
shit im turning into one of thosegay frat boys..